I had initially recorded this in contemplation of how I was going to represent what I wanted to say to an audience. The words themselves are akin to this contemplation, and it was not my initial intention to present them in this crude form either. However, in deep contemplation of honesty, and the importance of it when expressing oneself to a person, or an audience, or even to oneself, I decided to do nothing to it but add subtitles. Most of the time in the video I'm simply reading from the screen, and I watch myself in retrospect with curiosity. I pay attention to my body's movements as my mind tries to figure out how to represent how to express a deep confession of my soul in a way that doesn't so closely resemble itself, but rather something of acceptable (but fake) beauty or charm. I realized that had I done this to entertain my audience, rather than to confess and express my true self, it would demean the purpose of the entire thing and it would become as useless as a p! iece of toilet paper, or a commercial. So, this is not made to sell an image, or to impress people with fake composure, and in truth I can't say for sure what it was made for at all. But to me, all pretentiousness aside, it is one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen come out of myself, because I don't think I have ever had a moment when I was entirely myself and confident enough to show it to everyone. No show here, no eloquence, just a moment of brainstorming and raw truths. And a huge rant
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